I have felt frustration for some time about being on the right track. I know I am—I’m doing everything I know I should—and yet at times I have wondered why I am not receiving what I think I should be receiving. I would like a lot of things, but it seems like all I get to do is prepare to receive them rather than actually receive them. I work toward these things every day, I read, I study, I write my blog posts, I serve others, but I haven’t felt like I was moving forward. I knew I wasn’t moving backward, and it didn’t feel like I was standing still, but it still seemed like something wasn’t quite right. I felt like I should see some physical evidence that I was in fact moving forward—rewards or something—evidence that God was aware of what I wanted and that he was blessing me. Then it occurred to me that if I wasn’t digressing or standing still, maybe I was actually progressing, just slowly and without a whole lot of physical evidence. I know I’m a wiser and kinder person than I was a year ago. I know that physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually, I am moving forward. It’s probably not as quickly as I’d like, but progress is progress. And progress is preferable. As I continued to think about it, I began to understand that I had a false belief that I was standing still and not moving forward, which was actually preventing me from moving forward! How powerful our beliefs are!
False beliefs operate at the subconscious level. Beliefs are solid ideas stored in your subconscious mind. Whether or not they are really true, you will believe in them as long as you hold them in your mind. Beliefs get stronger when more evidence supports them and they become weaker when something appears to contradict them. (adapted from “Subconscious Mind and the Belief System,” by M. Farouk Radwan) “Our beliefs make up the foundation of our lives. What we believe becomes what we think, which becomes how we act, which ultimately determines our lives. This is empowering—if we can believe it, we can achieve it. However, the glitch in the system becomes apparent when we consider that most of our beliefs were formed when we were very young, before age seven. As children, we didn’t have a filter on information. Whatever we were told, we believed. This is notable in everything from Santa Claus to the Tooth Fairy—we didn’t even think to question their validity. We also had the same acceptance of limiting thoughts and messages imprinted on us by our parents, teachers, and other people in our lives at the time.” (Jessica Ainscough, “Erasing Limiting Beliefs and False Boundaries”) Jessica eliminated cancer from her body by changing her beliefs about herself. I don’t mean to convince you that such a thing is easy, but it is possible. Anyone can do it.
But there is another factor at play here. The thing I needed to understand is that not only was I holding myself back with what I believed, I wasn’t giving God a chance to teach me. I was in such a hurry to get to where I wanted to be that I wasn’t staying around for the lessons that were mine along the way. When I saw myself on my life path, I pictured myself running full speed toward the goal.
“Too often we pray to have patience, but we want it right now! To wait upon the Lord means planting the seed of faith and nourishing it with great diligence, and patience.” (Robert Hales, “Waiting upon the Lord: Thy Will Be Done”) A plant laden with fruit doesn’t grow from a tiny seed overnight. We may not know when or how the Lord’s blessings will be given, but in his time and his way, his blessings will come. For some answers we may have to wait a long time. I now understand this to be true. It was something He needed me to learn.
I now set an intention that I will continue to move forward, no matter at what speed, and that I will listen to my body and to the Lord, so that I will understand that even though I would like things to progress quicker, they are progressing exactly how they are supposed to be.
Consider the false beliefs that may be in your way. Is there something you want and it hasn’t come to you yet? Is it because of a false belief or is it because God isn’t ready to grant it to you? Chances are you have exactly what you want and exactly what you have asked for—you just may not have realized it.